Something new

My new gypse justin boots, since I've been riding for a month my dad figure it's time to by me new pair of boots and get a boot that is made to ride. So here's how the new pair of boots looked like, then once I used my new pair of boots it got a little bit of New Mexico dust plus the spurs to make every thing official. 

Back from the past...

Ever since school has been out and for the first time ever I am home again, and I have to be honest it feels weird to be back at home again. It feels weird to be home again because ever since high school I've been living in my own because I lived in the dorm and after high school was done I moved 5 hours away from where I live and I've been on my own ever since. But now that I am home again and been looking for a job, my dad has talked me into training the horse with him. The type of training method my dad has been using on the horse, is the "Clinton Anderson Method", I went from ground work to riding the horse. And I have to be honest it was scary and it was hard to be around a horse or to even rided one, it has been 15 years since I've been on a horse. But after gaining my confidence back I was able to ride the horse again and this time full speed. For the first time ever today, I actual saddle up the horse and rode the horse across the land we owned and I did all of this without my dad near by to guide me. I was so proud of myself today because I did it all on my own, but I still have fear of riding the horse full speed. Also not to mention that my dad had brought up an idea of me being in a rodeo again and do barrel racing, I will not lie I do miss barrel racing and I miss the speed of the horse. But until then I will be preparing myself and will continue to ride the horse until I have to go back to school.

Finally!

Hello, 

Guess what You guys? I finally gotten me an Xbox 360 kinect. To be honest I was really excited when I got it, I felt like a kid in the candy store and I bought the games I like and the other games are still on hold for now until I save up some more money. Now that I'm back home in the North of New Mexico, I forgot that I don't live in the city meaning that when I want to play online I lag a lot while I play online against other gamers. But I joke with my friends about me lagging by saying that, "I'm a lagging Master." Other than that I am really happy that I got an Xbox, and my gamer tag is ReaperGoddess. But I really wish I didn't lag a lot because with good internet connection I know I'm a away better killer on BlackOps2, and I can own up on my gamer tag name. Other than that I still have fun and joke around with my friends by singing stupid songs, and being goofy with them and sometimes talk smack. I have to be honest being the girl online I get a lot of jokes or I get picked on and sometimes I get really harsh names but I got back up. BUT if any of you guys have any recommended games for me to try out please comment me or message me, I would really like to try them out. Thanks and have an awesome day! 

Weakness To Strengths

My goal in life is not to have any fear when I get older, that way I can make it through life easy and can enjoy what is given to me. I am not afraid of bugs, death, old age, bullies, school, violence, and myself. Within my life I only have two fears, it used to be three but that changed. The one fear that I was able to get rid of was being afraid of the dark but then I finally got over my fear and now I can walk outside in the dark. The way I was able to concern my fear was facing it and be in the dark alone, also without the help of my friend showing me that there is nothing dangerous about the dark. The other two fears that I have are snakes and falling for the special someone. I really hate snakes, but it’s a funny thing because I never use to be afraid when I was little. Just thinking back I petted a snake when I was little and I was not scared and I held the snake in my hand. But since I’ve grown up I gotten to be more scared of snakes, I think it’s because I always get attack by one when I go home. I use to be really scared that if I heard a snake on the TV. Or see on I jumped on the couch and will not touch the ground of hours until I felt safe. But now that I want to get rid of my fear I was able to tone it down a little and now I can see one, but I still get spook by it. Then the third fear its falling for someone. I told my boyfriend about this and he said that he was scared too but it’s not stopping him to love me even more. The only reason I am afraid to fall in love with someone is because in my past relationships I get hurt and it gets worst every time, but I do hope that the relationship that I am in now is different and I will learn how to love and I will give it my all. But then it is really different then my past relationships because for one he respects m, loves me for me, cares for me, and most important he actually treats me like a girlfriend. Overall I well get all of my fears out of the way, and then I will happy to live my life to the fullest.  

Danzig

I have to be honest I love Danzig, he was the main reason why I got really into rock music. I mean I was into it like I listen to metallic and guns-n-roses, but after I started listening to Danzig I got into other music like bullet for my valentine, butcher babies, Texas hippie collaboration, trivium, slipknot, ACDC, Korn, evanescence, disturbed, and the list goes on. The more I got into the rock music I liked it more and more. Then from there, it got me thinking that if I was going to go to my first rock concert I would want to see Danzig. Another to be honest I had a crush on Danzig, I just like his voice when he sing especially when he sings “How the gods kill”, “mother”, “I am demon”, “dirty black summer”, and “twist of chains”.  When I was looking up concerts for Danzig I found out that he was going to sing 30mins away from where I live and so I made last minute plans and went to go see him in concert. I got to admit I enjoyed my time there and also I got to see Doyle which was a plus for me. Also not to mention that I got into my first mosh pit and that was fun, let all my anger out and laugh with people and made some made at me. The experience I had that night was amazing I mean it was worth the money I spent because he sang 3 more hours extra and the concert did not end until 3:00 am. But overall I had fun and I got to see Danzig in person and other amazing band that rocked the hell out of building.

(And I know that the concert did not allow people to take a picture but hell it was my first experience.)

High Step In Life

In my third year of college I finally decided to try out for the Miss Native NMSU Pageant. Throughout the week I had to attend a lot of events and I had to miss some of my classes. Luckily it did not get in a way of me doing my homework because I was already 2 weeks ahead of my class work in each class. On Monday I had to meet & greet everyone on campus and had to attend an open pray, then that night I had to ask some questions that the people or students had on campus so they can get to know me better as a contestant. On Tuesday I have to attend a American Indian Traditional Dance, Wednesday I then had to attend a comedy night with Jamies and Erine (Native American Comedian) and I also spent 5 hours serving Indian Tacos out to the students and the best part was that it was free, so I had to do a lot of work. Then on Thursday was a DJ dance. Finally on Friday it was the big day of the pageant I had to compete against two other beautiful young ladies, which I became close friends with. That Friday night was nerve wreaking, I was nervous and excited but over all I enjoyed every moment. On Friday night we had to answer 2 questions (one being why I want to be Miss Native NMSU, and the second was how will it be benefited in my school and experience), then it was our traditional talents, next was another question (randomly asked), then the crowning of the new Miss Native NMSU.
             

For my traditional talent I did something every unique, it was very unique that throughout the final school year everyone kept asking me questions and asked where I learned it from. But my traditional talent was about the hand, and what it represents in the Native American Culture along with other fun facts that relate to my topic. By the end of the pageant it was time to see who won the title but unfortunately I did not win. Overall I got what I really wanted from the pageant and that was being able to gain my confidence in myself to speak in front of others, making new friends, learning other cultures, being friendly to newer people, being able not to be shy, and the most important thing was being able to be proud of where I come from and what tribe I am. Also I was able to make my family proud and brought joy to my mom that I can still have courage, and my sister believing in me and supporting me, and my dad well he was happy that I got to wear my traditional outfit for a whole week in class and he was also proud of me that I still know my culture. 

Ashkii My Brother

Some people would think that it would be weird to call their pet, their brother. As for me I do not think it was weird at all because I never had a brother, I only had one older sister and we have our fun sister bonds but sometimes we both wish for a brother but that did not happen. So instead we got a puppy and we decided to call him Ashkii, and it met boy in Navajo. From the time we got him we took care of him like a close family member and he was on spoiled puppy, but we all didn’t mind. Ashkii was the most amazing dog I’ve ever owned in my life because he liked to play a lot and I mean a lot, he had a lot of toys we bought him. But since he liked to play a lot we thought it would be cool to teach him some tricks so I ended up teaching him to fetch within 3 weeks, we also taught him how to stay in one place, and then we were trying to teach him how to roll over, and he can jump very high for a small dog. Also the family and I would take him with us everywhere and I mean everywhere. We took him to town, to rodeos, and he enjoyed them long travels with us.

The family and I could never be so happy with our dog for the past 3 years, until one day it became a nightmare. It was a nightmare because we didn’t get to say good bye, because my sister and I were working out of state and our puppy ended up dying while we were gone for the summer. It was very sad because we felt like we lost a family member and we all cried because Ashkii was no dog or little puppy he was our brother, our little baby of the family. It hurt my mom, my sister, and my dad, including myself. It’s been 11 months since our Ashkii died, but there is not a moment that we all do not think of him. For example when I drive back home I keep thinking that he is laying in the back seat of my car as I drive, or when I come home I keep thinking that I well get a welcome home greeting from my brother. (tear). As for my mother and sister they were said because they did not have one picture of our puppy, and I was the only one who took a lot of pictures. So last Christmas I bought a collage picture frame and put Ashkii pictures in them, and when my mom and sister open their presents they cried so much as well as my dad.

Yes I miss my dog, and the other pet that we have owned. Thinking about it with all the animals that we had which were dogs, sheep’s, and horses we treated them like family and we all think about them. In the end we all miss our Ashkii, and we loved him dearly along with the past animals we owned (some died, some were stolen, some were sold, and some went missing).